Well took my time to get over my ex. After heaps of broken promises i snapped lost it and it became clear how there was no longer a relationship between us. I beat myself up a lot and turned to drugs and self harming tendencies both of which i have previously done. I told her i wouldn’t do any drugs while we were together but after that with my depression and anger kicking in it was the first thing i went to. Passed out from blood loss and have passed out from drugs. Neither of these things i am proud of now but i accept that i have done them. She broke so many promises and a few of them were smaller things so i knew she couldn’t keep the big ones and she didn’t. Someone asked me how i live recently my response was day by day mate. Getting up is the hardest choice i make every day. They were kind of shocked but left it and walked away. I battle every day now i am over you i still battle. I made you a promise for me not to go until your ready and every day i wonder if because you broke all your promises can i brake this one.
wished people thought before they spoke to me and all the others like me.
Fuck it. I’m so fucking done.
Feeling the exact same way myself, wanna make myself feel alive again